How do I tell you this when I don't have my voice?

My voice is there for me to speak out my feelings and my thoughts.
The sound of my voice is to show others that I exist even though it may be a suffering
Words coming out of my mouth, may or may not change someone's life
Music flowing out between the two lips will surround someone with warmth and love...or not

The pain of not having my voice with me, is like stabbing myself with a sharp-end pencil 17 times yet, I am not bleeding. Sufferings that come with a voiceless life, is like you are a ghost that cannot traffic with humans. The greatest affliction without a peek of sound, is not being able to convey my feelings and thoughts to people.

Through this temporary experience of not having a voice. I realized that I have placed my voice to the wrong use. Instead of preaching the gospel, I gossip. Instead of praising God, I praise myself and others. Instead of telling God that I love Him, I say it to anyone, but Him.

Lord, thank you for this wonderful experience.